30th birthday (drafted last jan 18 2015)

i actually do not feel like celebrating my birthday. i dont wanna go out or get drunk then suffer an inviolable hang over the following day. now that im at my early 30's i feel that my priorities have changed a lot. i would rather prefer spending quality time with real friends by hanging out and catching up over good food or just at home. no need for alcohol to be brave and talk. 

but inspite of my not so great mood and appetite. i got out and decided to go to manila grand stand to attend the Pope's once in a lifetime mass. my gf and i went there and unfortunately we were not cross the road to the grandstand because there were already a lot of people who cop a squat. it was raining hard because there was a storm coming and people were wearing heavy duty raincoats since umbrellas were not allowed and not preferred. 

on this day it is also the feast of sto.niño de tondo. everyone was celebrating and every household has prepared foods for those who will be visiting or attending the fiesta. 

i was at my gf's house and her mom was cheering me up. she was teasing me me that the whole tondo was celebrating my birthday because every house prepared something to eat. she's cool and sweet like that. she made sure that i ate a lot and tried all of the viand cooked. 

i felt lonely somehow. this is the first birthday i am celebrating without my mom. it feels different not having her around. i wish i could have her back but i cannot change what already happened in the past. but then things happen for a reason and i hope that it will help us for the better. 

the secret life of a kikay girl: HAPPY NEW YEAR! HAPPY 2015 :)

the secret life of a kikay girl: HAPPY NEW YEAR! HAPPY 2015 :): *** new years eve thoughts *** i spent my christmas eve at our home.with my cousin and nephew.its was a very different christmas eve since i...

HAPPY NEW YEAR! HAPPY 2015 :)

*** new years eve thoughts ***

i spent my christmas eve at our home.with my cousin and nephew.its was a very different christmas eve since im used to spending christmases at our house with her.and without her its just different and yes it was quite sad.on the 25th i went to my girlfriends house and at dinner her father invited me to spend the new years with them.he said that i might be lonely spending the new years eve with my cousin and nephew or might be lonely to spend it alone ( alone meaning i have no immediate relative to spend new  years eve since my mom already passed away,my dad and brother are working abroad and my sister has work on that day). 

so ive decided to spend new years with them at tondo manila :)

i was already there the on the 31st and helped quite a bit on cooking and doing some chores.ann (yhan's brother's wife) cooked almost everything. tito nyok bought chicken at savory and yhan made carbonara.it was a bountiful celebrating with everyone of their relative coming to their house taking pictures and greeting everyone else in the room a happy new year. yhan's cousins were really very playful cheerful and merry. 

tita yolanda (yhan's mom) asked me to do her makeup and so did ann.it was fun being with them.somehow i felt happy for the mean time.i can never forget my mom or how different it is now but somehow i was able to smile my hidden pain away.

heres a picture with them :')

L - R: tito nyok with little mae mae..tita yols..yhan..ME..anne kuya erick..freidrich..